The Zzzs of an evening person

There are so many things I want to accomplish and most of them come at night. 

I want to read books that make me laugh, cry and be grateful. I want to read new books from 'renowned,' 'bestseller,' and 'literary protege' authors. I want to reread books that are worth revisiting and catch up with characters who are worth talking to.

I want to watch films that are light, funny, and sincere. I want to watch comedies, romcoms or biopics that make staying up late worth it. I enjoy suppressing an LOL at hard-hitting punchlines from bigtime comedies like Bridesmaids, The Hangover, Skeleton Twins and recently, Trainwreck, because my family is already asleep. I feel lighter after crying as I sympathize with characters from emotionally-biting dramas like A Beautiful Life, The Theory of Everything, The Imitation Game, and romcoms like Jesse and Celeste Forever.

I like to watch great actors pour their emotions as they play the role of ordinary people. I like to hear words that I wish I wrote and admire talented screenwriters who actually did.

I want to prepare for my work the following day or weekday to achieve more and leave the office early. I want to think of more efficient ways to balance work and life so I can have more daydreaming time.

I like to workout again to see some physical improvements and feel emotional and mental lightness. I want to practice a healthy mindset and hear people say, "you look healthier" the next time I see them.

I like to think of ways on how to achieve my goals, but first identify what they are.

I want to talk to dear friends and find out their whereabouts without relying on social media. I want to not 'like' their recent activity and tolerate the way we're nonverbally updating each other.

I want to think of my next travel or escape plan from my restless schedule (read: millennial). I want to revisit places I've been to and also imagine the places I know I will be in someday. 

Most of the time I want to do all these things between 10 PM to 4 AM which is a challenging task.

I also want to rest my weary head and stop thinking of all my aforementioned wants. I know I am robbing myself of energy when I think of all those things instead of sleeping. Yes, this is the life and loss of an 'evening person.'

I have written my best essays and a play during these times and the results were encouraging. I know the process of 'wanting' and 'liking' to do more and be more is effective during midnight but I know that at some point I have to (ironically) wake up from dreaming and actually sleep.

Take this blog for instance. I know I'm on to a good direction but then it's already 5 AM and I can feel my head aching from too much screen exposure.