Wednesday, April 2, 2014

If There's a Will, There's a Wave

When 2014 opened, I promised myself that it will be a year of travel, exploration and discovery - or revisiting old people, places and experiences. 

Summer is fast-approaching and with that, I thought I needed to try a new water sports. Surfing came as an instant solution as some of my EON mates are also into the activity. Without hesitation, I joined an intimate trip to Baler, Aurora, which is currently making louder waves as a go-to surfing destination in the country.

One day stay. Three one-hour surfing sessions. Five people. Plenty of instructors, fall and lessons. 

Here are some of my learnings while battling with the tides of Baler:


That Awesome Moment When You Can See and Hear the Waves on Your Feet 

Paddle Out: Always keep moving forward. Never cease to go further whether the waves are calm or disruptive . Stretch those arms and paddle out left and right. My surfing instructor would consistently coach from behind, "paddle lang kuya, paddle ka..." especially during high tides and it was really effective. Instead of panicking, facing the waves through paddling prevented me from damage -- I was not slapped hard nor wiped out. 

Choose the Right Waves: Not all waves can help you learn surfing. Ironically, the bigger and harder-hitting waves are the ones that will train you to be strong, fearless, and determined to complete one long ride. And when you ride the right wave and reach the shore, you just want to face bigger waves even more!

Not All Waves are Scary: True enough. There were a number of times I felt as if I was in a deep part of the sea but when I paddled, I was able to touch the sea floor. It may seem funny but when your stomach is full from a buffet lunch and you only had ten minutes of nap, little waves can really come across as frightening.

Never Let Go of Your Board: For non-swimmers like me, the best and only advice to remember is that no matter what happens, never let go of your board. That foam or fiber is your best friend above and below sea level. It is the medium that brings you to a faraway place and gets you back to where you came from. Your surfboard gives you a magic carpet ride, but it involves a lot of skinny-dipping, humping, and positioning (and I am talking only to people who rode a surfboard before).

Instructors are Inevitable: Have you ever known someone who has inspired you despite their age, status, gender, race, etc.? Well, I found one brave young man in Baler who at the age of 14, was my source of confidence in the sea. Yes, my instructor was way younger than I am, yet he paddled when
my arms were weak, he pushed my board so I can stand and ride even if he was swallowed by the angry tides, and he was always on red alert when I am acting like a child. Shanlee is a very inspiring man. He, alongside other surf instructors in Freedom Surf School, were among the bravest, happiest, and kindest groups of young men I met. 


If not for instructors like the Freedom Boys, people in the Metro who may have the money but are not stress-free, can never have enjoyed such an exciting water activity.

Pain is part of the Game: I am currently recovering from bruises and cuts in my legs, coupled with over-worked arms and chest. Surprisingly, I never thought of quitting surfing. I like what it does to my body and I know that pain is all part of the learning process. And as consolation, I just take these as reminders that I once did something new and felt really good about it.

Stand Up... Just Stand Up: Fall numerous times if you cannot help it, but the golden rule of surfing is to stand up - just stand up. By standing on the surfboard, one can learn how a ride can take away so much worry and anxiety. Again, there may be more times when you will fall, but as long as you stand up -- knees shaking, arms and chest hurting -- no ride will ever go wasted.

A Long Training Fuels a Long Ride: I had three one-hour sessions within my 24-hour stay in Baler. My first session in surfing was the most memorable because of the surprise and satisfaction that my first complete ride gave me. I have to tell you though that it was during low-tide. During my second try, the tide was crazily high and the sea seemed like a giant washing machine, bleaching everything that comes inside it including people. And because of inadequate exercise and rest, I was also dissatisfied with my third and farewell session. 

Looking back on the rides I could have completed and from observing the surfers who braved the tides alone, I realized that surfing is not an overnight success story. To efficiently ride a wave is like spending years in the seminary, sleepless nights drawing blueprints and sketches, and training to write or draw from childhood -- it requires repetition, discipline, commitment and a goal.

It's Okay to Fall, Just Don't Drown: In surfing, every fall is equivalent to a brave attempt. People may overlook it, but sometimes effort weighs heavier than results. It's okay to fall. After all, you're stepping on water, not on concrete. However, it is equally important to fight every fall and don't drown yourself with fear of falling again. Enjoy the moment. Feel the water. Cooperate with nature. Cliche as it may sounds, but take every ride as if it's your last.

That Leash that Binds You and Your Board, Creates Wonders: As long as I can remember, I was never unafraid of water. I was always on the safe side of the pool, the usual walker in the sea. And like children, I am conscious of what's beneath my feet in the brownish sea floor. But while surfing I learned to trust the medium that will keep me safe and floating - the leash. It prevented me from a number of drowning incidents especially during the high-tide session (when I can't touch the seabed) and it was my top-of-mind every time I fall. To reiterate, the leash that binds me and my board is responsible for so much happiness and carelessness I felt while surfing.

After a Long Day of Surfing, Don't Forget to Play Carelessly with the Sea: Few minutes after our third session, I realized that I have not yet plunged into the sea for the longest time. So before I leave Baler, I thought that I should experience it bare - this time thinking only about me, the water, and how grateful I am to experience such pleasure. I could have avoided this tanned face, neck and shoulders had I not swam after surfing, but who cares? It was the best exfoliation my body has undergone in years. And boy, it was refreshing!

Promise Yourself to go back to Your Surf School for a Better Experience: My epiphany before leaving Baler: I missed it already! A lot of thoughts, wishful thinking and images entered my mind that compelled me to go back in Baler as soon as possible. In the end, I promised myself to return and train harder, be braver, and be more accommodating to unfriendly, loud waves. 

I know that in time I can be adept in surfing.   

Just a thought: if you can change every word 'surfing/ surf" with "life" in this post, how would you have seen the activity then? Would you think of it as exciting or boring? For me, I went to Baler only to surf; fortunately I got back in Manila to ponder on the wonders of this thing called.....

Tara, friends. Surf tayo! Mamatay tayong fresh!


The First Morning. The Breakfast that is Masarap na, Sobrang Tagal pa

This is it. The First Session (when I performed my best)

 Lucky Five: Chance Passengers and My Seat was Totally Uncomfortable

Saturday, February 8, 2014

My Mom knows a LOVE STORY

It is a quiet Saturday afternoon inside our house today. I am reading, my siblings are attending to their digital concerns, my mom is ironing our clothes while our neighbor is playing 96.3 Easy Rock FM on loud speakers.

I have to go to inside a room because while the music is good, it distracts me from reading a (nonetheless) self-help book. With the unexpected playing of some songs, my mom quips, "bata pa ako nung sumikat yang kantang 'yan," and "alam mo pinanuod pa namin ni Papa mo sa sine yung pelikula niyan, yang yung theme song. Sa Cubao pa yun e." 

Each of us continues with our different worlds until my mother felt nostalgic in one song: Endless Love, a duet by Diana Ross and Lionel Richie. She starts recalling...

(not in her exact words)

Alam niyo mayroon akong kaklase noong first year college
Bata pa lang siya, sila na nung boyfriend niya noon. Mag-first love sila. First boyfriend na yun
Tapos 'yan yung theme song nila. Tuwing tumutugtog yan, kumakanta sila, sumasayaw sila
Lahat kami kinikilig. Ang sweet sweet nila
Tapos isang araw, yung boyfriend niya, nagpunta ng Navotas sa bahay nila
Nahold-up, eh nanlaban yata, napatay
Tapos yung kaklase ko, sobrang nalungkot siya na umabot sa hindi na siya nakapag-aral
Gabi-gabi nandun kami sa burol ng boyfriend niya. Iyak kami nang iyak kasi iyak siya ng iyak
Facetowel ang dadalhin mo dahil hagulgol ka sa kanya
Tapos araw-araw hinahanap namin siya, hindi siya makita sa bahay nila
Nandun pala siya sa sementeryo, sa puntod ng boyfriend niya
Minsan dinadala na lang namin siya ng pagkain

Tuwing naririnig ko yung kantang yan, yung kaklase kong yun yung naaalala ko
Asan na kaya yun. Hindi ko nga alam kung nakapagtapos ng pag-aaral yun
Ang alam ko nag-aral siya after ng ilang taon. Pinilit na lang yata siya ng pamilya niya nun
Pero siya ayaw niya na talaga
Sabi lumipat na daw sila sa Cavite
Hindi ko rin alam kung nakapang-asawa pa siya
Ano na kaya nangyari doon

Kaya tuwing naririnig ko talaga yang kantang yan, yung Endless Love
Hindi ko mapigilang maiyak
Naaalala ko sila, ang sweet sweet nila
Tapos namatay yung lalaki. Kawawa naman yung kaklase ko.
Hindi ko talaga mapigilang umiyak tuwing naririnig ko yung kantang yan



My mother grabbed me and my sister's attention with her monologue. She occasionally stopped from ironing and wiped her tears with a towel. 

We can't help but think of where is that woman now? That girlfriend who still went to the cemetery everyday after her boyfriend's interment. That young lady who traded her studies to experience the pain and chose to live with it. She must be one blessed woman right now because of her guardian angel. A man so young, promising, loyal and sweet who looks up to her from heaven thinking, "I'm so sorry to leave early. But I thank God for your loyalty."

To the people reading this, if you cannot recall the lyrics of Endless Love, you need not Google it anymore. The way my mother recounted that love story is better than singing the song entirely.

Wow. What a way to spend Saturday afternoon. 

It's way past 5 P.M. now. I am done reading the book, my mother is also done with the ironing while our neighbor has turned off the radio. Within minutes, another story was born and I could not have been happier.

Staring at the Wall

Tuesday Night. I talked to one person I know from way back and the conversation we had helped me move on with a lot of issues I held on to since November. I though I did fine during our talk. However, from Wednesday to Friday, I felt heavy deep inside and I only had one word for it: stress. 

I will not go into details on what we talked about. It was good. But something about the conversation made me rethink the state I am currently in. And then I felt that our talk was just the 'icing on the cake.' I realized that the reason we conversed is because soon enough, I would have to revisit an old fear and an ancient quest.  

Friday Lunch time. Stress and disorientation got the best of me and as a cure, I went to the bookstore and bought my first self-help book from Bro. Bo Sanchez entitled "Your Past Does Not Define Your Future." I read it in the bus while travelling home and I was deeply touched with some of the messages and anecdotes in the book. 

Mind you, I have always wanted to read it since college but I didn't have the courage to pick it up and place it on the cashier. I always told myself, "may perfect timing ang pagbabasa ko niyan." And last night was 'that' time.

I admire how Bro. Bo opened up about his addictions -- his struggles with sex, pornography, masturbation, and more importantly, finding and revaluing himself. I believe that to some extent, all of us can relate to what he has gone through, maybe not with sex and lust but with addiction itself. I, for one, am undergoing through a lot recently and I thank him for reminding me that there is indeed hope and rescue that is always available for us, courtesy of God. 

Too much holiness and godliness now. If you would let me continue, I'd like to share with you a part of the book:

CHAPTER 10: UNTIL YOU GET HEALED (my short version)

There was a woman in a mental facility and she was violent, helpless even. Everyone including her doctors have given up on her and she was left secluded in her room and always staring at the wall. 

Everyone quit on her, except one person.

The janitor in the hospital has always wanted to help her and see if there is still a means to cater her recovery. What he did was after his duty, he would go inside the woman's room, his own chair by the hand, sit parallel with the woman and stare at the wall with her for 30 silent minutes. 

Years have passed and this routine continued. One day, the janitor sat beside the woman, as usual, and surprisingly, the woman started talking and it evolved into conversations. Eventually the woman was released from the mental hospital fully recovered.

And why was she healed? Because there was one man who through his actions, told the woman, "Listen lady, I'm going to stay here beside you. I'm never going to leave you. I'll sit here with you until you get healed."


I wish all of us would get to meet our own version of that janitor someday. But as Bro. Bo put it, and I totally agree, that janitor is God. He will never leave us. He will sit beside us, year on year, until we get healed from whatever it is that has been causing us pain.


In general, I am not a fan of reading self-help books because they tell of a story of one person's triumph and his recommendations which are not applicable for everyone. And when I do, which is seldom, I see to it that even from judging it by the cover, it is a worthwhile read. With this book, I wasn't wrong.  

Believe that your past does not define your future. 

And as I continue on with life, I hope I can walk focused now and avoid more of that Tuesday night in the coming days. 

(Photo not mine)

Tuesday, December 31, 2013

My 2013 in Books, Films, etc.

Below this post is my 2012 in Books, Films, etc. For now, may I present to you my short list of books and films I managed to pick up, read or watch despite my busy schedule :)

When 2013 came, I promised myself  to read more books by Filipino writers. And I can say that I have been keeping that promise good enough :)

BOOKS:

1. Unholy Night, Seth Grahame- Smith - here's to another look at the Three Wise Men who graced the nativity of Jesus Christ. Prepare yourself for an emotional roller-coaster ride in Seth's take on the unspoken life of Balthazar
2. Looking for Alaska, John Green - maganda rin 'to!
3. Room, Emma Donoghue - another young hero emerges from this beautiful novel
4. Paper Towns, John Green 
5. Lumayo Ka Nga Sa Akin, Bob Ong - Jumpstarting my Pinoy reads. Welcome back, Bob Ong. Meaning, this book is funny!
6. Young Blood 4, Various - inspiring and honest essays from the twenty-somethings
7. Harry Houdini's Box, Brian Selznick - a really nice children's bed time story
8. Tahong/ Talong, Various - a collection of short homoerotic stories from promising Filipino writers
9. Laglag Panty, Laglag Brief, Various - the hetero version of the former
10. The Golden Loom, Various - a collection of Palanca award-winning children's stories 
11. This is a Crazy Planets 2, Lourd De Veyra -  more blessing (and curses) from the Lourd!
12. Manila Noir, Various - a collection of crime fiction from established and awarded Filipino writers here and abroad
13. Ang mga Kagila-gilalas na Pakikipagsapalaran ni Zsa Zsa Zaturnah, Carlo Vergara - LOL, yun lang!
14. The 100 Year-Old Man who Climbed out the Window and Disappeared, Jonas Jonasson - you would wish that Alan Karlsson, the protagonist, is your lolo :)
15. Sellevision, Augusten Burroughs - hindi ko talaga siya favorite e no? This is his first novel and pati itong genre na ito, he can rule!
16. The Adventures of Huckelberry Finn - nandaya ako kasi this is the easy-read edition; as in pambata siya. Haha
17. Inglourious Basterds, Quentin Tarantino - sobrang ganda. yun na!
18. Ligo na U, Lapit na Me, Eros Atalia - overkill ang satire. For me lang ah! :)
19. Siddhartha, Herman Hesse 

FILMS:

1. The Kids Are All Right (again)
2. No Strings Attached 
3. Life of Pi :)
4. Spread
5. Les Miserables' :)
6. Hansel & Gretel
7. Girl with the Dragon Tattoo
8. The Expendables 2
9. Upside Down
10. You Don't Mess with a Zohan
11. Brave
12. Jack the Giant Slayer
13. Oz: The Great and Powerful
14. Tekken
15. Bounty Hunter
16. The Help
17. December Boys
18. SAW 6
19. 50/50 :)
20. Avengers (again)
21. The Dark Knight (Heath Ledger!)
22. Silver Linings Playbook
23. Brokeback Mountain
24. Bad Teacher
25. Secret Life of Bees
26. Ted
27. Iron Lady
28. We need to talk about Kevin :)
29. Hangover 3 :))
30. EPIC
31. Four Sisters and a Wedding :')
32. Despicable Me 2 :))
33. Across the Universe (again)
34. Wolverine :)
35. Quick Change
36. Porno (????)
37. Before Midnight :))
38. Apartment 143 (walang kwenta)
39. Percy Jackson & the Sea of Monsters :(
40. Ekstra
41. Before Sunrise :)
42. Instant Mommy
43. Lihis
44. Eat Pray Love (again)
45. Good Will Hunting (again)
46. Sapi
47. Bekikang
48. Running with Scissors :)
49. Hunger Games: Catching Fire
50. This is the End
51. Prisoners
52. Don Jon
53. Water for Elephants
54. Kimmy Dora: And Kiyemeng Prequel

CONCERTS:

The Script's #3 Live in Manila

Thank you, Lord for keeping an eye on my soul with these books and films that contribute to my well-being. Cheers to another year with love for the arts! :)

Monday, December 30, 2013

My 2012 in Books, Films, etc.

Today is the last day of 2013 and I know I should be doing a roundup for This Year. But pardon me as I will write first my 2012 in Books, Films, and even some artsy highlights. (Hindi ko kasi nagawa noon, so ngayon na lang :) )

BOOKS:

1. A Separate Peace, John Knowles - classic, it cuts so deep it's hard to process emotionally
2. The Lost Symbol, Dan Brown
3. Have a Little Faith, Mitch Albom - tears. always. 
4. Pitik Bulag sa Buwan ng Pebrero, Ricky Lee - I bet only hardcore Lee fans would know this feminist stage play existed
5. Feathers, Jacqueline Woodson - children's book on racism; hindi ko na matandaan ang story
6. The Street Lawyer, John Grisham - my first Grisham read, I was not disappointed :)
7. Perks of Being a Wallflower, Stephen Chbosky - "we accept the love we think we deserve," enough said!
8. Eleven Minutes, Paulo Cuehlo - it's one of the many 'self-seeking' novels of Paulo; too many life lessons to comprehend
9. Curious Incident of the Dog in the Night Time, Mark Haddon - another classic tale which was inspired by deduction systems of Sherlock Holmes
10. The Giver, Lois Lowry - there is a reason why this is considered a classic children's tale :) And it's movie version will be shown this 2014 :)
11. The Kite Runner, Khaled Hosseini - oh well, my favorite novel thus far :')
12. Running with Scissors, Augusten Burroughs - my favorite memoir :)
13. The Secret Life of Bees, Sue Monk Kidd - a nice religious, feminist novel
14. Mister Pip, Lloyd Jones - a gift from my best friend. Truly a treat! A major inspiration of this book is The Great Expectations by Charles Dickens
15. Catcher in the Rye, J.D. Salinger - I honestly need to read this again because I seemingly did not comprehend it the way it should be understood
16. Possible Side Effects, Augusten Burroughs - LOL essays from one of the 'funniest men in America'
17. This is a Crazy Planets, Lourd de Veyra - marami kang matututunan; kagaguhan man o seryusohan
18. Kafka on the Shore, Haruki Murakami - nice din 'to. I remember staying late in the office just reading this
19. The Fault In Our Stars, John Green - haay nakuuu... lahat ata ng kilala ko, humagulgol dito.
20. Interpreter of Maladies, Jumpha Lahiri - there is a reason why this collection of short stories is a Pulitzer winner. I can read this again and again.
21. A Wolf at the Table, Augusten Burroughs - my third Burroughs book this year?! Wow. This time, he sits down and puts his humor aside from some serious reminiscing of his childhood with, or better yer without, his father. Augusten is really one of my favorite writers!
22. Miss Peregrine's Home for Peculiar Children, Ransom Riggs - kung hanap mo fiction, ito try mo! Fiction to the highest level! Galing lang!
23. You Are Not A Stranger Here, Adam Haslett - hanggang ngayon hirap ako intindihin ang ibang short stories sa compilation na 'to.

FILMS:

1. Manila Kingpin: The Asiong Salonga Story
2. Crazy, Stupid, Love
3. Horrible Bosses
4. Sherlock Holmes
5. Sherlock Holmes: Game of Shadows (adik lang ako sa kanya)
6. Eat Pray Love
7. Little Miss Sunshine
8. The Lovely Bones
9. Midnight in Paris
10. Rain Man
11. The Talented Mr. Ripley :)
12. The Illusionist
13. Love Me If You Dare (Jeux D' Enfants)
14. Good Will Hunting :')
15. Across The Universe :)
16. Dead Poets Society
17. Requiem for a Dream
18. Unofficially Yours
19. Priceless 
20. Howl
21. The Libertine
22. Benny and Joon
23. The Painted Veil
24. Pans' Labyrinth :)
25. Donnie Darko (????)
26. The Kids Are All Right :) - may I just say, sobrang galing ng cast dito; esp. Annette Benning
27. Hunger Games
28. One Day :')
29. Titanic 3D :')
30. Se7en - Kevin Spacey!
31. Memento (????)
32. Avengers :)
33. Dark Shadows :(
34. Boy Pick Up 
35. Kimmy Dora: The Temple of Kiyeme
36. Abraham Lincoln: The Vampire Hunter
37. Bwakaw
38. The Dark Knight Rises :)
39. Three Musketeers
40. Cars 2
41. I Do Bidoo Bidoo - the music of APO Hiking Society
42. Perks of Being a Wallflower
43. This Guy's In Love with you Mare
44. Hangover 2 - twice kung pinanuod :))
45. 3 Idiots
46. The Hangover
47. A Lot Like Love
48. Tiktik: The Aswang Chronicles - curse you, Lovi Poe and your underacting eyes
49. Skyfall :)
50. Da Pogi Brothers, Weh?
51. Nowhere Boy - biopic on John Lennon's teenage life :)

THEATER:

Bona :))

TV SERIES:

Newsroom :))

CONCERTS:

James Morrison's The Awakening Live in Manila
Ate Gay's Ako Naman! Concert - LOL

Next naman, 2013! Yeah baby! I hope and pray na marami akong natutunan sa mga nabasa at napanuod ko :) Mukhang mayroon naman kahit kaunti :)

Saturday, November 30, 2013

Welcome to Pen&Eraser

I started this blog metaphorically using Pencil as the medium in writing my thoughts, well in fact I am typing on laptop keyboard. The pencil indicates that my thoughts are not permanent and so I have to write them for my, and my handful of readers', benefit. I am aware that everything I write can change or be omitted as I mature through time.

As I (slowly and desperately) explore more topics for discussion in this humble and honest blog, I am introducing you to a new segment, Pen&Eraser. Frankly, this is nothing new from the weekly roundups that we see from other sites (SPOT.ph and Rappler, to name a few). In here though, I just want to talk much, write less and maybe entertain more. 

Going direct to business, here is Pen&Eraser (insert Gaga song: I work for the applause, applause, applause): From pencil, Who and What should be retained in this world and should we deeply encourage to propagate their sensible selves, and Who and What should evaporate faster than a newly-blown bubble would. And I'll explain all the reasons Why.


Pen; let's make their mark permanent

1. The covers: Angel Aquino for Rogue and Cherie Gil for Esquire (November Issues)


Here are two ladies, fined by their experience, elegance and artistry, gracing two upper class glossies of the country this month (well, last month kasi December 1 na mapa-publish ang blog ko). Angel shares to her On The Job director Erik Matti what she thinks of Philippine cinema in Rogue's 2nd Cinema issue since Cherie's cover in March 2008 (Oh yes, it's Cherie over and over again in this list.) Angel never dreamed of being a star back in her UP days but look at her now, a constant fixture in some of the most promising projects in the industry -- may it be independent or mainstream.

Cherie, on another note, raises the bar for women in their 50's. She fiercely encourages women to not need a man but always want one instead. A symbol of a woman not to be ignored, Cherie is one of the honest, careless, and classic stars who remain true to her brand -- being an Eigenmann and a foremost primetime antagonist.

2.  The beauties: Mutya Johanna Datul, Megan Young, Ariella Arida




Philippine pageantry has been on the rise these past few years. I don't know why but I think we are slowly becoming the 'Venezuela' of Asia. Nevertheless, these fine young women are really commendable for making us proud during ordinary times and the not-so peaceful of days.

For the second half of this year, Mutya won as Miss Supranational, a beauty fair slowly gaining fame and credibility among pageant aficionados. Megan, however, made bigger news as she ends the 47-year curse of title-less Pinay beauties in the beauty-with-a-purpose Miss World. And just recently, Ariella placed fourth in Miss Universe. Fans and forecasters predicted she will take home the crown, even 2012's Olivia Culpo said she was rooting for Ariella. In Ariella's credit, placing fourth is not a bad place to be, especially if you're the only non-Latina in the Top 5. That speaks a lot and we should thank her for that.

P.S. There is really something about how beauty queens react during attendance (see pics above)

3. The Brave Man: Atom Araullo



When Yolanda came in, he made it to worldwide Twitter trend. He also caught the attention of a CNN anchor, prompting him to ask: who is that brave man? Well, this news heartthrob really proved that there is more to his pretty face. And what exactly did he do. Well, Atom Araullo reported live in Umagang Kay Ganda from Tacloban while the storm made its first blow in the country. 

He was there on the street, soaking wet and reporting even when losing communication with the home studio. His bravery, the first to go live among his contemporaries, inspired memes and short FB and twitter love letters from fans and peers, alike.

Eraser; let's get rid of them. Sayang lang sa space sa earth

1. The super typhoon: Yolanda, enough said.



 By November the media have been warning the public of a super typhoon coming our way. This Yolanda became a household name and brought red signal to every conversation in offices, canteens, schools, government, and uhm... the world? It remained true to its promise of being famous for setting world records and basically turning the Central Philippines from green to gray in Google Earth.

Everyone was suddenly on their feet, calling for and giving out help. It was really a hard time for our country no matter how you look at it; from the POV of a government official, housewife, student, priest, media, or what-have-yous and who-are-yous. I think the only person happy that Yolanda happened is Dick Gordon, because uhm... we all know why. You know that red cross thingy... (my parents volunteered and they saw how more expensive canned goods and other imported items are being excluded in the relief bags. sad but unsurprisingly)

2. The super Yolanders: Korina Sanchez, Jejomar Binay, That Yellow Ribbon




[He said, she said, they reacted] When CNN superstar anchor Anderson Cooper reported live from Tacloban, he said he didn't see much on-the-ground effort from the government. When ABS-CBN pokerface anchor Korina Sanchez heard this, she said he doesn't know what he is talking about. When netizens heard her say that, they said: He's in Tacloban and you're in your radio booth. Who do we believe to be telling the truth? Not to mention that netizens slammed Korina for (allegedly) protecting her husband's reputation as our Interior Secretary. 

We have not heard from Korina since then. Thanks to her management. Frankly, I think that people just overreacted. Anderson Cooper will be given a Star in the Eastwood Walk of Fame by entertainment guru German Moreno while the White House said they are looking for possibly appointing Cooper as their PH envoy; just because he covered the story. Why did it not happen with other foreign media as well? Meanwhile, Korina was suspended for an indefinite period while netizens ranted against her without any concrete solutions raised to help the victims. Again, frankly I think people just overreacted.

Going back, where do all these commendations for Cooper come from? Is it because of his story or plain idolatry?

Jejomar Binay, on the other hand, was simply everywhere during the relief efforts. And this I say with all the literal implications of the word: his face is on every relief goods and plastic bags donated to the victims. Mind you, even on drinking water. He said it was his 'friends'' idea but honestly, Jejomar, didn't you think it was way too loyal of them as it was already blatantly inappropriate and insensitive? And of course, I felt sad when I also saw That Yellow Ribbon on other plastic bags. That used to be a noble and dignified symbol of our nationalism. And the way they stuck it in those bags, it lost all the meanings it used to have. 

To my politicians: Yolanda during, before and after, was not your time to shine. Clearly, there are people who died and suffered. The last thing I, we, want is for dole outs to be in yellow or orange stickers. And it was also sad that the President wildly entertained a blame game with the LGUs. Care to show some maturity and urgency, please. 

Pencil; I don't know where to put you because of the polarity of the incidents in your life this month

1. The boxer and the tax evader: Manny Pacquiao



He is back! Said the headlines last November 25, a day after our 'pambansang kamao' reclaimed his kingship in the boxing ring against Brandon (totally unmatched for him) Rios. Again, people were in celebratory mood because he 'raised' our flag despite the aftermath of Yolanda. But to our surprise, days after gaining his new belt, he was knocked out with an ATM saying: Hey Manny, congrats on additional bills, unfortunately you cannot withdraw a single cent from me. Talk to BIR for more information and inquiries.

Yes, the country's (perhaps) most hated bureau said that Manny didn't pay his dues for a period way back 2009. Manny's side rebutted that he paid his taxes in the US and he will not repeat losing some more (or paying the PH government). This appeal to correct Manny's tax payment has been under the radar since but when BIR finally made it public, it was instantly a huge issue. The money we are talking about already reached P2.2 billion, and is still increasing. Frankly, Pacman, you should talk to Kim Henares. She is a woman of substance, honor, and lots of guns.  I hope this gets fixed cleanly and honestly.

2. The new Muslim lovers: Freddie Aguilar and his sweet sixteen keychain



Why do people care if national music icon Freddie Aguilar is so fond of her minor girlfriend? To some he is a pedophile, well to me, he is in love. And let me remind you that the girl reciprocates the affection and seems to be normal during interviews and photo ops. Why do people focus on them when we have bigger issues to resolve? Where is Janet Napoles now? do CBCP and DSWD care? (my search for Janet is good for another blog, altogether). 

Let them live and let them be. At the very least, nobody is harmed and/or killed yet. Although admittedly, converting to another religion, may it be Islam or not, can really get controversial especially if the intent is union and/or marriage only. Again, I don't want to think about it, I have my own dilemmas. Buti nga siya may syota eh?! 


Most of the time when two people are in love, others are happy for them as well. But all that changes when they are 44 years apart, biologically. Why is that so, sige nga "anak", pakiexplain, labyu!


***photos are not mine

Sunday, October 27, 2013

When Five Fell

When 2013 came, I swore I'd give Filipino books their longed-for chance and focus on them for good. Gladly, I am keeping my promise. 

Meanwhile, another literary shift I am slowly yet fondly taking on is reading short stories than novels. You know why? Because an impact a novel leaves us with can be sourced from a mere short story - that is how powerful, or sometimes more, it is for a literary piece. With short stories, you don't necessarily get the details, just settle with emotions and you will have more than what you paid for. In short, there is beauty, and plenty of them, in short stories.

Knowing this, my best friend Khaye recommended that I watch some short films produced by Wung Fu Productions on YouTube. I kept on forgetting this info until she finally shared me a link. After watching the first and her favorite clip, I thought: what have I been browsing in YouTube all those years?

To get a sense of what I am talking about here, kindly watch this clip: 

And oh, please read the caption below FIRST. I didn't understand it the first time because I jumped to the video right away. Khaye was really dumbfounded and I was really ashamed.


"Can the things we love, love us back just the same? Five household objects express their feelings toward their owner when she begins to neglect them for someone else. "When Five Fell" is a new take on the ideal boy-meets-girl love story. Although the short is told from a unique and unconventional perspective, the emotions described should be familiar to anyone that's fallen in or out of a relationship."

Just to manage the length of this blog (though it's a free space), just tell me if you find the video - from script to cinematography - lovely and I'll share you the sweet and short script :) I hope my best friend doesn't get angry because she is my source to all good reads pirated from the web.

Thanks! I'll write to you again, then :)

Saturday, October 19, 2013

Homework: Isang Tula

While trying very hard to sleep last midnight, the below lines came to my mind. And so, I thought, why not try to make it into one, senseless (for the lack of better word) poem?! 

Try lang natin as a new blog (che!):

Wag mo na kong turuan kung pano ang umibig
Matagal kong prinaktis yan
Tapos nung recital, binagsak mo lang ako
Hindi ako mahinang estudyante
Bobo ka lang bilang professor
You don't attend to my student needs
Pero pinilit kong aralin lahat ng topics sa subject mo
Nahahanda ako kasi anytime
Baka magpa-quiz ka, o kaya prelim, midterm, o kaya finals na
Tapos ano...
Kung kailan patapos na yung sem at wala kang macompute sakin
Sasabihin mo kulang pa ako at kailangan kong bumawi
Eh nasan ka ba nung handa na ko sa exam
At kung nasa classroom ka noon,
Bakit iniba mo yung topic
Hindi ako nagkulang
Lagi akong present
Ngayon tanungin mo yung sarili mo
Baka ikaw naman talaga ang absent
Bahala na 
Di bale na
Hindi ko sasayangin ang apat na taon ko sa school
Para lang iplease ka
 Gagradweyt din ako isang araw
At pagkatapos nun, lalabas ako ng school
Ikaw, dito ka lang
Maghahanap ng bagong tuturuan, o hindi matuturuan
At malalampasan uli
Kasi ang estudyante, natuto nang wala ka
Nakakainis lang talaga
Kasi minsan sa buhay ko
Binigyan mo ko ng marka
Hindi nga lang mataas, bagsak pa



Ganda no?! LOL. Joke! Uy, copyrighted yan ah!

Wednesday, September 4, 2013

Pork -- whether eaten or not -- causes headache

At the very least, it was comforting to know that another Filipino from a different place, sect, gender, religion, and status also voiced out the same disgust I felt regarding the Pork Barrel Scandal which has been continually impairing our national growth and growth as a nation.

I joined our fellowmen in the Million (actually, Many) People March held at Luneta Park last August 26, Monday. I knew the event would evoke national interest. I believed in the same cause that these people were fighting for. I was sure the event will make prime time news’ headlines. The only thing I wanted to have a full grasp on is – aside from the fault of Janet Napoles and our corrupt solons, why did they come?

With my colored pens and my notebook, I invited some MPM goers to write why they were at the event. Here are some of their reasons:

MILLION PEOPLE MARCH
August 26, 2013 (National Heroes Day) | Luneta Park
I’M HERE BECAUSE...


Of my children’s future!!!
Jet Pampolina | Father

I love the Philippines <3
Carmela | Consultant

I love my country...
Sister Ems| CSFN

I want my voice to be heard and (to) abolish totally pork barrel
Cora | Businesswoman

I fight corruption! Always!
Bro. Angelo, OFM | Franciscan

To fight corruption. Sobra na sila... God bless Philippines
Dante Fornesa | Businessman
(He even gave me his contact numbers s as to be informed of the progress of this case and should there be another MPM)

I pay my taxes. I am a Filipino who cares for the future of my children. I want accountability and transparency. I want change. I want to see my country rise because I know we can.
Sharon | Mother, Wife and Soundtrack Producer

To unite with all the Filipino people in saying no to pork barrel and really focus on giving life to all! Scrap pork barrel. Give life to Sierra Madre and to Mother Earth.
Elizabeth | Chairperson, Save Sierra Madre Network Alliance Inc.

I’m here because I have to be. Witnessing the ever-growing gap between those who have and those who have not has distressed (or stressed) me greatly. I hope this gathering at Luneta shows the government how serious  we – the Filipino people – are regarding our future. The PDAF scam has been exposed. What(‘s) next? What I want to see is (1) the pork barrel system abolished and (2) those who took funds / benefitted from this scam brought to justice. 

I have a four-year old son. I’m here because I want him, and all children to have a positive future in this country. OUR COUNTRY THAT WE LOVE. Mabuhay ang Pilipinas!
Teenee Chan | Singer, Theater Actor


I am for change. I am a Filipino who wants to make a difference.
Yanam | Housewife

I want a better Philippines for my students
Teacher Jerson

I want to fight for better living in our nation.
Jess | (Student)

Pilipino ako. Pilipino tayo. Magkaisa tayo.
Jay | (Student)

Because I join or people in their protest against the abuse of our taxpayer’s money!!
(A member of Philippine Educational Theater Association)

I Juana be one in a MILLION
Juana Change

Transparency is a must!
M. Thomas Duggan | American Photographer, Peace Corps Volunteer

And as for me, I attended the Million People March because of several factors:

·    (1) I am a taxpayer since 2011. Let me clear to you though that the big bulk of the money which was allegedly ill-spent was collected from 2006-2009. During that time, I was still enjoying the benefits of public school system in this country. With a great sense of gratitude to the people who funded my education, I was there to represent the underprivileged Filipinos who wish they could go to high school or college (or worse, grade school) but could not because of lack of resources. Had these money been used to fuel education programs in the metro and more importantly in the provinces; our youth could have been more empowered and competitive. I am a proud product of the public school system since grade school. Hence, I know how important it is to attain and uphold education. I am sad because not all people at my age have experienced the same because they simply cannot, while those who could have helped them – did not.

·    (2) Like most people, I believe in the power of money – the good and the bad. I can tell anyone who would confront me that I never stolen from my parents. Not because we were rich, but only because I don’t need much. I just have enough and I’m good. Unfortunately, to most barong-clad people, money is blood and water combined. It sustains them. It enriches them. It provides for them. And how I wish soon enough – it could put them into their proper places as well. Yes, I am thinking of jail – with only steel bars and a resounding, domineering conscience.

·    (3) And of course, I want to do what I exactly did – know the pulse of my fellowmen. I am so curious to know what fuels them. I know we all have different reasons in going to Luneta that day. But to tell you honestly, I am amazed and overwhelmed with the idea that no matter how valid or petty the motivations may be, we were all there bearing the same spirit of patriotism. Like what most people echoed at Luneta, “I love my country.” I agree. But you know what, when I saw and heard both the masses and the elite say those words passionately, it just made want to love it more.

Disclaimer: I do not believe in total abolition of the ‘pork barrel.’ To me, it is a very dangerous tool when entrusted to the wrong hands. But given that we have good, conscientious leaders, the PDAF is actually a very sound means of extending public service. Think about it! 

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